So we are finally here! The Wedding Celebration is this Saturday so this week I am running around like a crazy person trying to get everything ready for it! Getting the dress dry cleaned, making sure people understood the invites, working on favors, cleaning the house and making sure we have everything ready for the trip... thank God its small is all I have to say... I have been stressed with 50 people... imagine if I had the big, traditional wedding, yuck! Ha Ha :o) And lets pray for the weather to be cooler so I'm not dying in the dress!
I am so happy that Corey and Pete's Dad are coming! Pete's face lit up when he told me. I didn't think they were going to make it... but they surprised us at the last minute! So good things that way... I hate that we aren't able to visit. We are trying to visit there for Thanksgiving! Hopefully we can, it would be good to see everybody... especially since we got married :o)
I am still waiting for this one package to come in the mail which is the one I ordered first, grrr. I don't get it! I really hope it gets here in time! Sea Otter charms :o) yes, I know I'm a geek. But they are my favorite animal, and I get to see them for the first time next week!!! The best present ever would be me to play with sea otters for a little while, you know like dolphins. I don't even know if they have that lol but that would be awesome...
Monday, July 13, 2009
Monday, July 6, 2009
The End of a Long Chapter...
So a long chapter of my life has come to an end. Its been up, its been down. Its been amazing, and its been a nightmare. I am sad to see it end. But there's just no other way.
A friend.
A friend doesn't do the things she has done.
Through this whole time I wanted to believe she was the good person she claimed to be. I let her charm and lust for life blind me. But its always there. The reality of who she really is. Even if I were to forgive her for the past, I realize now I could never forget. Especially because she has not changed. She forces herself on to you. I don't even know if she realizes what she does. She drains you and uses you up until you have nothing left. She treats me like I am a child. I am stronger than she will ever be. She never understood and never will what I have been through in my life. And at a time I needed her most, she turned her back on me and betrayed me. All I can say is "What goes around, comes around." She dealt with a situation with friends that I listen to her go on and on about now. And thats all I could think of was that saying. (((Do you remember when that friend asked you to dinner? You told me you were too hurt and not ready to forgive for what she has done. You didn't reply to her message. Now you know what I was doing whenever you asked me to go out with you. I was not ready to put myself out there again. I did not want to be hurt like that again.))) I have tried to give her chances... and almost thought we could be friends again. But I will not let myself be hurt like again. I am a different person than I was then. I was weak and vulnerable due to everything that was going on. Now I am strong and independent. I don't need a fair weather friend. A friend who has time to vent and unload all of their problems on to you and can not return the favor. She is the epitome of the TOXIC FRIEND. I have been through the dark and came back to the light. I used to think I needed her vain compliments and reassurance. But I do not need that from anyone. I have proved to myself that I can get through these things. I have all the love I need in my life, the good kind, the unconditional kind. Not the kind of love when its convenient for you to love. Despite not having a perfect life, I love life and all that it has to offer. And accept that there are things I cannot change, and that things will happen, good and bad. And believe in myself that I can handle what life brings me. I am not perfect, and do not claim to be. I have many of my own flaws. But I know I deserve better than that.
If you see this, here is a message to you...
"I am sad that we cannot be friends. There is good in you. But you are consumed by trivial and harmful things. You are a very hurtful person. And I respect myself too much to be friends with you. I hope in time you will open your eyes. I do not wish bad on you. I wish you happiness in your life. I love you for the good in you. And I will treasure our good memories forever. Goodbye."
A friend.
A friend doesn't do the things she has done.
Through this whole time I wanted to believe she was the good person she claimed to be. I let her charm and lust for life blind me. But its always there. The reality of who she really is. Even if I were to forgive her for the past, I realize now I could never forget. Especially because she has not changed. She forces herself on to you. I don't even know if she realizes what she does. She drains you and uses you up until you have nothing left. She treats me like I am a child. I am stronger than she will ever be. She never understood and never will what I have been through in my life. And at a time I needed her most, she turned her back on me and betrayed me. All I can say is "What goes around, comes around." She dealt with a situation with friends that I listen to her go on and on about now. And thats all I could think of was that saying. (((Do you remember when that friend asked you to dinner? You told me you were too hurt and not ready to forgive for what she has done. You didn't reply to her message. Now you know what I was doing whenever you asked me to go out with you. I was not ready to put myself out there again. I did not want to be hurt like that again.))) I have tried to give her chances... and almost thought we could be friends again. But I will not let myself be hurt like again. I am a different person than I was then. I was weak and vulnerable due to everything that was going on. Now I am strong and independent. I don't need a fair weather friend. A friend who has time to vent and unload all of their problems on to you and can not return the favor. She is the epitome of the TOXIC FRIEND. I have been through the dark and came back to the light. I used to think I needed her vain compliments and reassurance. But I do not need that from anyone. I have proved to myself that I can get through these things. I have all the love I need in my life, the good kind, the unconditional kind. Not the kind of love when its convenient for you to love. Despite not having a perfect life, I love life and all that it has to offer. And accept that there are things I cannot change, and that things will happen, good and bad. And believe in myself that I can handle what life brings me. I am not perfect, and do not claim to be. I have many of my own flaws. But I know I deserve better than that.
If you see this, here is a message to you...
"I am sad that we cannot be friends. There is good in you. But you are consumed by trivial and harmful things. You are a very hurtful person. And I respect myself too much to be friends with you. I hope in time you will open your eyes. I do not wish bad on you. I wish you happiness in your life. I love you for the good in you. And I will treasure our good memories forever. Goodbye."
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Invitations are done!
So me and my Mom worked very hard tonight and got all the invites done! They look so pretty!!! I won't tell what they look like 'cause that will spoil it, but I do love them!!! Getting so excited for the Celebration!!!
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
OptimYstic :o)
I came across this article and fell in love. It makes too much sense... I wish we all could... we would be so much happier! What do you say???
Body/Soul: Living In The Now
by Deborah Noel
Graphic Illustration by Darren Schwindaman
February 8, 2006
Can you feel your feet? No, not with your hands. In this moment, can you feel the sensations going on in those two things that carry you around all day? What about your left little toe? Can you feel "inside" it? Chances are good that unless the poor thing is yelping in pain, you've given it no thought at all. How about the inside of your right knee? Or the tip of your left shoulder blade? Are you living in your body, or is your body simply following your brain around?
We live in a culture of "talking heads," and the heads doing most of the talking belong to us. What were you thinking before reading this newspaper? Was it about something in the past? "I can't believe what he said to me! … That jerk in the pickup cut me off! … Good grief, I screwed up again. What an idiot I am." Or it could have been something in the future. "Where will I get the money? … What if I bombed that test? … I'll be happy when I finally get a new job, house or car." Sound familiar?
Can we change any of those situations by thinking about them constantly? No. Does it make us feel good to think about them? No. Then why do we choose to do it? It is a choice, after all.
Let us make another choice. Think. In this moment, what do I lack? Am I fed, clothed and warm? Most of us are. But do we spend much time thinking about how good things really are right this minute? I'm getting better at it, but I ain't there yet. How about you?
The concept of living in the moment is not new. Teachers, philosophers and motivational speakers have preached it for centuries. Why don't more of us practice it? Some may say it's only for Tibetan monks on mountaintops. But there is a distinctly practical side to changing the way we think. Scientists have demonstrated the effect of stress on our bodies, and we know how hard it is to bear. That is why we constantly seek ways to reduce it. From spa treatments to TV, books and movies, to drugs and alcohol, we look for escape from stress.
Shouldn't we consider the source instead? Who creates all this anger, anxiety, fear, guilt and worry? We do it—by allowing the continuous talk in our heads. The guy who cut us off in traffic is not the culprit. Our reaction to him is. And the negativity grows every time we push the instant replay button. Eventually, these brain loops affect the body, causing muscle tension, indigestion, headaches and more. A continuous stream can cause serious disease and impaired relationships. It would be cheaper, easier and much more fun to simply change our minds—before we land in the doctor's office with a self-inflicted illness.
For the spiritually inclined, there are other advantages to changing our thought patterns. One cannot connect to God with a mind full of negative thoughts. Many of us have begun some form of meditative practice, but often have difficulty taking the feeling of presence into our everyday lives.
One opportunity is to create an awareness of how our bodies feel in the moment. Which brings us back to our feet, so as a beginning exercise, try this. Give your feet a nice massage. Thank them for carrying your baggage around. And don't think about anything except how good it feels.
Body/Soul: Living In The Now
by Deborah Noel
Graphic Illustration by Darren Schwindaman
February 8, 2006
Can you feel your feet? No, not with your hands. In this moment, can you feel the sensations going on in those two things that carry you around all day? What about your left little toe? Can you feel "inside" it? Chances are good that unless the poor thing is yelping in pain, you've given it no thought at all. How about the inside of your right knee? Or the tip of your left shoulder blade? Are you living in your body, or is your body simply following your brain around?
We live in a culture of "talking heads," and the heads doing most of the talking belong to us. What were you thinking before reading this newspaper? Was it about something in the past? "I can't believe what he said to me! … That jerk in the pickup cut me off! … Good grief, I screwed up again. What an idiot I am." Or it could have been something in the future. "Where will I get the money? … What if I bombed that test? … I'll be happy when I finally get a new job, house or car." Sound familiar?
Can we change any of those situations by thinking about them constantly? No. Does it make us feel good to think about them? No. Then why do we choose to do it? It is a choice, after all.
Let us make another choice. Think. In this moment, what do I lack? Am I fed, clothed and warm? Most of us are. But do we spend much time thinking about how good things really are right this minute? I'm getting better at it, but I ain't there yet. How about you?
The concept of living in the moment is not new. Teachers, philosophers and motivational speakers have preached it for centuries. Why don't more of us practice it? Some may say it's only for Tibetan monks on mountaintops. But there is a distinctly practical side to changing the way we think. Scientists have demonstrated the effect of stress on our bodies, and we know how hard it is to bear. That is why we constantly seek ways to reduce it. From spa treatments to TV, books and movies, to drugs and alcohol, we look for escape from stress.
Shouldn't we consider the source instead? Who creates all this anger, anxiety, fear, guilt and worry? We do it—by allowing the continuous talk in our heads. The guy who cut us off in traffic is not the culprit. Our reaction to him is. And the negativity grows every time we push the instant replay button. Eventually, these brain loops affect the body, causing muscle tension, indigestion, headaches and more. A continuous stream can cause serious disease and impaired relationships. It would be cheaper, easier and much more fun to simply change our minds—before we land in the doctor's office with a self-inflicted illness.
For the spiritually inclined, there are other advantages to changing our thought patterns. One cannot connect to God with a mind full of negative thoughts. Many of us have begun some form of meditative practice, but often have difficulty taking the feeling of presence into our everyday lives.
One opportunity is to create an awareness of how our bodies feel in the moment. Which brings us back to our feet, so as a beginning exercise, try this. Give your feet a nice massage. Thank them for carrying your baggage around. And don't think about anything except how good it feels.
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