Birthday Destination: Palm Beach, FL

Jack Johnson concert on my birthday, August 26th in the sunny clime :o)

Can't wait, can't wait, can't wait!

ALTHOUGH...

this means some serious work on my part. I refuse to go to tropical places looking like a beached whale. So despite my Sciatica, heel spurs, IBS and other bullcrap, I am attempting an exercising regimen. Ouch! Just the thought of it zaps my energy, but hopefully it will help in the long run. I wish there was a way to jump start this to make it more possible. I am extremely impatient so alot of times I try to do too much at once too quickly and I hurt myself so I get depressed. OR it doesn't work fast enough so than I get discouraged. Then lose self confidence in all aspects of my life. I feel like I'm wasting away. Getting fat and contributing nothing to society. Its a vicious cycle that has been ongoing for about 5 years. Pete and I want to have a baby, and I can't do that when I am this unhealthy. I feel pressed for time (in the biological sense) and that makes it worse! I need a break, no I need a jolt of energy that won't extinguish or massive, massive amounts of willpower. God, can you help me out? Please, I need this... and I can't do it alone.