I still can't believe what transpired yesterday. Furthering my belief that the world is cruel CRUEL and cold place. I'm not even kidding when I say I want to be a recluse. I'm scared to death to bring children into this world. I can't imagine that God is letting our crime get out of hand... that crime rates are going through the roof. Its people! People are evil. I'm so afraid of what I'm becoming. I tried to fight this world... tried to let things go, be the bigger person, let people treat me bad and tried to overcome it and not let it break me. But I am afraid it has. The bad in this world is winning. That scares me. Instead of fighting it, I just want to hide from it. Move to some secluded island or deep in the forest so no one can find me. Whats the point of being close to people when horrible things happen? Bank on something happening. No one is safe from it. I feel so incredibly worn out. WORN OUT. Tired. Defeated. What am I supposed to do now?